“I’ve learned to love who I am, and I haven’t cared what other people think of me for a long time.”
@AnselElgort Look at that view!
My bath bomb decided to turn my bath into a Van Gough painting
How you do that
every time i fall asleep my brother steals my laptop and somehow logs on and takes pictures on my webcam.
Give that kid a medal.
This is probably the best thing I’ve seen on here so far
9:17 p.m. Earlier I said these mozzarella sticks taste like garbage. I would like to amend that statement. They taste worse than garbage. I would prefer to eat garbage, because then there would be the chance I would get to eat a bite of something good someone started to eat but couldn’t finish, or paper.
The water outside TGI Friday’s is black now.
9:23 p.m. I keep thinking I hear people say “Caity.” I write down in my notebook that I am “definitely hallucinating.”
I put my head near the table to write more and the scent of old marinara and burnt rubber fills my nostrils. I sit back up.
9:36 p.m. A waiter tries to give me another table’s Boneless Buffalo Wings. Do not tempt me, Satan.
cop: who the hell ordered all these pizzas
me: you said i got one phone call
fucking zooming in on the cats face like “shit i’ve been trapped”
why the fuck does everyone in the purge movies want to kill people if crime was legal i’d find a way to erase my student debt and also probably steal a bunch of new clothes
You’ll see I’m wearing black now; I’m very accustomed to it.
But at one point while I was helping with all the auditions, I’d worked with Ryan Murphy. He was always interested in who the person really was, not in how they interpreted his character—he wanted to change the writing to match them. And so I thought, musically, let’s do the same thing. When they’re doing a song, let’s make it so that it’s from them—they’re singing from character; vocal considerations are second. And I think that worked for Ryan; I mean, it helped him find his people.
And at one point he just turns to me and says, ‘Get used to wearing…black.’ Right? So I thought, well, the guy always looks great; he’s a fashion maven, so I may as well.
Well, the next day we’re bringing in people who are auditioning for Jenna Ushkowitz’s part, and I’m dressed head to toe black. And eventually he notices that, and he’s like, ‘Not NOW. When you’re on the SHOW.’ And I said, oh, so not at the meetings; just when—why would I be on the show?
And I thought, ‘I know why he wants me on the show; I make everyone so comfortable when they’re singing; that’s why he wants me.’ And it might be, but his first note was, ‘You hate ALL of them. You hate the teacher, you hate the students, you hate minorities, you hate women.’
So in my own little head….for me, I consider that my character has had an arc from hating everyone to grudging acceptance. Because directors come in and they have no idea that that’s the one major note that I have, and they go like, ‘You should laugh at that; you should think that’s funny.’ And I’m thinking, ‘But, but Ryan said….oh, okay,alright.’ So I consider that an arc.
This is amazing.